“We each ventured out into the world, but back in the pool, we became sisters again. That was the space of our closest sisterly bond. I want to meet her again in the water. I want to swim alongside my sister, just like before.” On July 16, 1990, Liliana Rivera Garza, my sister, was murdered by her ex-boyfriend. She loved Daffy Duck, Hello Kitty, writing, and smoking Raleigh cigarettes; she loved movies, swimming, streets, architecture, her friends, and even Angel. This was her superpower, and also her fatal weakness. And I am trapped in a bubble of guilt and shame. For thirty years, I have kept returning to the same starting point: What did I miss back then? Why couldn't I protect her?
“我们各自闯荡世界,但回到泳池后,我们又成为姐妹。那是我们最亲密的姐妹情谊的空间。我想在水中再次与她相遇。我想跟以前一样,与我的妹妹并肩游泳。”1990年7月16日,莉莉亚娜·里韦拉·加尔萨,我的妹妹,被前男友杀害了。她喜欢达菲鸭、凯蒂猫,爱写作,爱抽“罗利”牌香烟;她热爱电影、游泳、街道、建筑、她的朋友,甚至爱安赫尔。这是她的超能力,也是她的致命弱点。而我被困在了内疚和羞耻的泡沫中。三十年来,我总是不断回到同一个起点:当年究竟漏掉了什么?为什么没能保护她?
“我们各自闯荡世界,但回到泳池后,我们又成为姐妹。那是我们最亲密的姐妹情谊的空间。我想在水中再次与她相遇。我想跟以前一样,与我的妹妹并肩游泳。”1990年7月16日,莉莉亚娜·里韦拉·加尔萨,我的妹妹,被前男友杀害了。她喜欢达菲鸭、凯蒂猫,爱写作,爱抽“罗利”牌香烟;她热爱电影、游泳、街道、建筑、她的朋友,甚至爱安赫尔。这是她的超能力,也是她的致命弱点。而我被困在了内疚和羞耻的泡沫中。三十年来,我总是不断回到同一个起点:当年究竟漏掉了什么?为什么没能保护她?